Day 61: Thought of the day 2/29/2016

I just need the space to breathe. Just a day away from all this stress building up. I always find ways to relieve this stress but it just comes back and puts a lot of pressure on my body. I don't want to be around you anymore. Every time you yell at me or at anyone my throat locks up as I'm ready to hurt you. I don't even want you in my life anymore. I respect you but I know that I don't it back. Why do I even waste time being around you when all you do is push me down. It anger drives me crazy when I tell my friends and other family members how I feel about you. Did you change? Not really. You still push me around every day stressing out about my mistakes then helping me improve. Everyone tells me that it is your way of showing me that you care about your family... I once thought it was but now I know it's hard to live up to your reputation. You are basically a diva. I don't care if you are showing your dominance in the house but I really just wished I had a REAL instead of going to another man in my life and say that he is a better father figure than you are. You always compare me to the most stupid things... I never learned how to tie my own shoes until I was in middle school... The one time I had to tie my shoes for the first time was at my elementary school Christmas concert... You stood there to yell at me and give me a hard time then teach me and then you tell me "A kid in Vietnam can do that at 1-year-old" I know you exaggerate but it puts me down no matter what the situation is. I don't know if you even know how to live in this days society... It won't accept you like they did back in the day. I always get advice and help from everyone as much as I can and they say the same thing. It is just the language barrier. I mean I do agree with that but no one will accept you if you just accepted me as an adult but you haven't. I know that you have accepted me is when you tell me like when you accepted me as a teenager and no longer a kid. I am all choked up and muscles are giving me multiple spasms having to type all of this out and having to tell the world how I'm feeling. Even putting it out there won't help me feel better it never will. Speaking to someone doesn't either. Only you can make it better yourself. I just wish you knew better

Day 60: How did you deal with one extra day this year Feb.29/2016 ?

It really isn't special but it is rare to have an extra day that doesn't occur every year. But I'm happy enough to know that it comes once in every few occassions

Day 59: Do you have a notebook? Write down what was last written in it!

"Never allow yourself to be an option in someone life when you allow them to be a priority in yours"

Day 58: Places you want to visit

I want to visit THE ENTIRE WORLD!

Day 57: “And they lived happily ever after.” Think about this line for a few minutes. Are you living happily ever after? If not, what will it take for you to get there?

They are not really living happily ever after because they had to deal with fixing the problem they had to deal with within the time. To deal with they just have to either deal with it or move on

Day 56: go on google and generate your super hero name and explain the powers you have.

The Steel Shadow:

  

• You are the technological mastermind. Your creations give you unexpected abilities
• Metal Armour: Transforms your skin into a later of organic metal armour and make you immune to any type of damage
• Shadow Control: You can manage and control shadows, using them to hide or transform like a transformer travelling from one shadow to another

Day 55: Your Definition of Happiness

You aren't happy until there is a smile on your face! You need to a good conscience to keep you stay motivated. If there are people in your life that are pushing you down, you should just find new friends or someone to satisfy you. Learn how to remove the devil off your shoulder. It shouldn't be there because it is stopping you from doing things to make you happy.

Day 54: How's the progress with your goals?

Recaps of my goals for 2016:

• write more blogs for all my readers to enjoy
• expand and improve workouts at home and at the gym
• open up to more people

I have opened up to a few and it was where I have finally had a thought where I want to become an outgoing person but only to my extent. But I will achieve this goal by the end of the year. I can say the goals I set myself aren't as bad but is tough to keep up with when you know you aren't going to give up and push yourself from stopping to achieve these goals

Day 53: Where do you want to be by the end of the year?

I just want to know that I have finally found myself and stop having to worry about things I have been stressing over about as this year progresses

Day 52: Art Corner #3

I was given a paper bag by my art teacher in art class. They told us to fold the paper bag in any way, grab a lamp and fill in the shadows as you see it and put it onto paper. Everyone was given orange brown white and black oil pastels. Brown for the bag, Orange to make the bag brighter, White to emphasize all the spots on the bag where it's bright and Black to fill in the shadow!

Day 51: Places you have travelled outside of your country?

• New Jersey
• Anaheim, CA
• Seattle, WA
• Orange County, CA
• Las Vegas
• Minnesota

Day 50: What did you want to do as a kid but never got a chance too?

I have always wanted to play on sports team growing up as a kid. I found a passion for soccer and badminton but always enjoy playing other sports like  football, baseball, softball. I always love playing sports and always being active. As I got older I realize that the lack of short breath is stopping me from doing things I love to do. But I'm willing to still play the sport even when I have this problem. I am still at my greatest even if I am short of breath.

Day 49: something you did as a child that other people remember you for

As for family wise, I'd probably say that they would always bother me about the fact that my sister used to be taller than me. And as for my friend which is probably the fact that I bring snacks for them to either eat or  to friends that do not bring lunch that day!

Day 48: Life Story in 3 words.

Ladder To Success.

Day 47: Blog Challenge Update

It is really hard for me to keep up with this blog challenge. I know this was going to happen but I wasn't going to stop myself and continue on with this challenge. I will not give up even though I skip or forget to do it one day and do it on the next day! I don't really think anyone minds because as long as I try I know I can keep or gain readers to come back to read all these posts!

Day 46: Is it good to hear the truth?

Yes, it is good to hear the truth. Whether it hurts you or not, it is better to hear it than not. I've always kept the truth away from others. I used to keep it all to myself but I was done with all the pain I went through, so I told myself that no matter how painful the truth is, you have to deal with the end result. You will feel better about yourself once you let the truth set you free!

Day 45: When was the last time someone told you they were proud of you?

I really do not remember when I was told that someone was proud of me. I know that everyone that I surround myself with are proud of me without having to say a word. But I just prefer to hear it from someone then having that mind set

Day 44: When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just do what you know is right?

Everyone always has those thoughts that come and hit you from time to time. For example, of a thought, I always go out alone and I'm always scared the fact that I will get killed. I just tell myself I can get through it and keep my head up. If you keep having these negative thoughts, just keep a positive mindset and you'll be able to go through the situation. As one of my sources quoted "There is too much negativity in this world. Why? People are influencing too. Just worry about yourself and carry on."

Day 43: Is it possible to lie without saying a word

Yes, it is possible to lie to someone with saying a word. It doesn't take long for someone to lie about something and hope others won't catch on the lie. When the person has caught you telling a lie, most would stare at you and see the way you reacted to the situation.

Day 42: Your best friend died, how are you feeling?

I am feeling a piece of my life is missing. When the memories come back and hit you, it is going to be like yesterday when you experience it for the first time.

Day 41: You have to learn a new skill. Do you prefer to read about it, watch someone else do it, hear someone describe it, or try it yourself?

I really say, it just depends on the skill I've learned. Most likely I am willing to read more about the skill than hear it from someone and would try it myself.

Day 40: what are features you get complimented on a lot

The feature that gets complimented a lot is when I grow out my moustache and have a little chin strap grow out.

Day 39: Do you think you've learn more from the good or the bad?

I think I learn more from the bad. I think I learn more from the bad because it teaches me to make better decisions bad people make and when that situation comes up I will for sure remember to think smarter and make wiser decisions. People make bad decisions because they are influenced by peer pressure and they don't know where it will bring them. That is why it is always good to learn the mistakes they made and become a better person by thinking before you do the action.

Day 38: Do you believe in Reincarnation

I honestly do believe in reincarnation. I believe everyone who goes through that process comes out either the same as they were before they left or have become a better person than they were before. Some people may not believe in reincarnation, but everyone has their own beliefs. You should believe whatever you want to believe. Don't let other tell you what is wrong and what is right!

Day 37: Opinion on people cheating

Cheating is never right. It never is and never will be. I honestly don't know why people just are straight up honest about it instead of doing it behind their significant others back and hope they will never find out. To those who did get confronted about it, they may tell each other they'll be 100% honest even though you'll never find out because it is their life and not yours. There are always decisions you have to make when it comes to cheating. To hide it behind their backs, move on from your current situation or just tell the truth. No one ever likes getting hurt so the truth is better to hear then hear it from some other source.

Day 36: Places where you want to travel. And why?

1. Miami, Florida: I really don't know why but as I kid, I have always wanted to come here but I will never know why I wanted to travel here.
2. Vietnam: The Motherland
3. Barcelona, Spain: Always been a fan of their national team
4. United Kingdom: Always a big soccer Fan and the history

Day 35: Another 3D Project

My Art teacher told the class to grab a few blocks and assemble the blocks the way you want to. Grab a lamp and draw the shape as you see it and then paint it. And here is the outcome of what I drew and painted as the end product.

Day 34: Your Daily Horoscope

I am born as a Scorpio, so here is todays Scorpio Horoscope for you! 
Today you are standing on a firm foundation of accurate awareness: You just learned some critical information. You know the real deal, and nothing anyone else will say to you can change your mind. This level of conviction will help you persevere through long, boring meetings and help you handle people who think they know it all. It's also going to help you see certain people in a much clearer light. There has been a lot of fast talking going on, and not a lot of progress.

Day 33: Inspirational Quote of the Month

Day 32: Your Favorite Piece of Art

 

This piece is one of my favorite pieces of art because I took one of my favourite things to draw which was 3D shapes. The 3D shapes any individual could always see me draw is a cross or a cube. Two of my favorites shapes to always experiment with. I'll go from coloring in the shapes to designing it to the point it looks really nice on paper. As I was experimenting with these shapes, I thought to myself why not try experimenting other shapes like a triangle or a rectangle. When I worked with both of the shapes I drew lines going horizontal and vertical lines and that is when I knew I could apply those into one of my art pieces!