The story that was left untold

I have said in one of my old posts but I will say it again for new readers, is that I am a slow learner. It takes me longer to process things through. I hate when the heat is pushed onto me rather than helping me out and teaching me to step by step until I can do it alone. I’m not always up to date with people/things in this era. I understand if it frustrates you but that’s how I am. I like when people say I’m smart, it keeps me going. But on the inside, it kills me because I have to keep up with the reputation I’ve left. I just want to be accepted as I am rather than be forced to be someone I’m not. I don’t want this to be used against me even though it always happens. I just want to be accepted as the weaker one but also know that I’m strong enough to fight my own battle. I feel like I lack creativity some days and then go through inspiration from photos and make another version of it as it was my own my idea. Sometimes I feel like others are doing my work for me rather than me doing it alone. I always love seeing good ideas but being able to execute it is another story. I did art because I lacked other skills but it is normal for all humans. I may be not the best artist but it’s good enough even just for a few people to be impressed with. I even get told to not be too negative about myself but sometimes it feels like I need to get my story out there so it’s easier for everyone to understand my feelings. Sometimes I feel like I support my friends, family or strangers in whatever they do in life but there are times where I want to be told too so I know that I am appreciated rather than just know that there are people supporting me back.

Growing/Improving as a photographer

As a photographer, I would like to learn to get creative with the photos I take. Whether it’s using a prop or just improvising, I still want to improve and understand how people can pull it off as I’ve seen all over the internet. I am not going to lie, I want to learn how to shoot in Manual mode. I don’t care if I was supposed to learn that once I picked up a camera but it does annoy me when I get told to use manual. If I don’t like or just don’t know how to use manual mode, why force it? Of course, I will learn but that will take time. I also want to be a storyteller where I can bring a photo to life by just telling a story. Posts like Humans of NY always inspire me to get either my story or someone else's story out there. I’ve always asked where do I want to go with photography. Well, I don’t really know but I like to explore. I know that’s there is boudoir, weddings, events, portraits, landscape and many other styles. Another problem I kind of came across is choosing a camera. I went with a Nikon D3300 because it was calling my name when I saw it but everyone always tells me to go for Canon. I understand opinions may vary but that’s how I approached my first camera. Maybe, in the long run, I will switch to any other camera out there but who knows. I shouldn’t be told what to do if it doesn’t make me happy but there are always options to choose from when the time is right.