The chase will continue

My friends tell me you should not be really bothered about the love life and let it find its own way to your heart instead of finding your answer. Leaving it behind will be a relief as it will make you a little less stress and a little more open to what the world has for you #NewChanges

Progress at its success

So, I kind of found the answers to my questions. People just want me to be happy and not bother me about my life as everyone has their own life to live. Most people see me as a happy independent person who does not really seemed bothered and a really active and a great person to be a friend with even though I don't talk much as if you are expecting that from me #HappyThoughtsDontComeToAnEnd

Something i never want to leave behind

Something I never wanted to leave behind was the love I had for you. Every girl I admitted to them that I liked was left on some type of cliffhanger. The first girl I went for I didn't know that I friend zoned myself until now. I never knew dealing with these relationships are harder than they are. The most recent girl, I left her with nothing from me except for the fact that we met each other at a school's barbecue when I first moved. You left me for a better guy, which I am happy for because life gives you opportunities and not all opportunities last forever

Nothing but a loss

I feel like having a relationship is not a the key of life. It really bothers me when someone ask who I like. I am not trying to bother with who I want to be in my life at the moment. There is a lot of other time for people to think that they want the perfect one. I always rather wanted to be a counselor and help people out about their problems since no one bothers to ask me about my problems which I see is usually something I do not really want to look back up. Memories are just memories that one just leave your mind forever, it also tells us which memories are made to remember and as you know the others you will forget over a period of time.

The Fear Of...

I would come back to you and tell you the fact that I miss you, but I am scared that you don't have that same feeling. Most people just say it to make you feel better when you know that you are just getting hurt on the inside and not being about to explain those feelings that you have for them.

Something To Be Sorry For.

I am sorry to all those who I kept you guys waiting for me to do something

Something Distant

I kind of learned the fact that I distant myself from a lot of people. I distant myself away from people because they want me to at least care about what is going on with their own situation. Like I said no one really bothers to hear my story. A story that can never be told more than once without hurting myself. Words are words that can't is explained. I haven't really learn who I truly am. I am trying to learn who I am by doing nothing but just keeping the truth inside of me. I do not really see the reason why I reach out to people when no one even bother to ask me, if I am ok or if I am hurt. Why do people bother to be my friend if they don't know the story behind my smile?

That One Day

I am missing those days where I didn't push anyone away and would have them by my side. Being able to tell them anything and comfort them at any time they needed help in life

The Chase

I have always been the one chasing for you, I never gave it a break. Chasing from girl to girl would hurt me even more. I would ask myself why stop chasing and let the girl chase you around instead? I never thought it was going to be easy because I am not as open as most of the people are in this world

Those Slow Days

Those slow days are days that can be enjoyable. One day can be sunny and another day can be moody. None of these days are well spent by all the time we have. People striving and driving around like they know what they are doing while others are just sitting there counting stones and pebbles like there are only one or two. Always someone walking in the rain like they need someone to be around them. Rain are just words that are meant to be poured out by the feelings that are held in that bottle. Rain Drops dropping, dropping on me, they ain't trying so splash me and let me be free.

The Spoken Truth

It is not about your one you are trying to chase that is hurting you, it is the fact that you gained some confidence to talk to them and at the end of the day you are just walking away from them feeling better than before. You will get over them one day and find someone who is better for you. Don't let your past bring you down.

Some days are just the days you wish it could be

Some days are days that I want to apologize even though I did nothing wrong. I feel like many people should apologize even if it is not their fault. If you have to apologize just do it, nothing is there to stop you. Chances may be hard to get but in the end you have earned it.

Pondering Thoughts

Just the fact that I miss you and really want to talk to you but I don't know what I should talk to you about. It feels like that every time I say I miss you is the fact that I say it way to often and start to feel like it is slowly losing its meaning. Nothing but just late night thoughts

A Bottled Message

Days like these are meant to be warm and sunny. To the fact that today was raining kind of changed the way, I anticipate things. Rainy days are usually the best days for most of us that want to think about our future or even what is going to happen for the next few months and so forth. I never got a chance to be close to a girl as you were with any other girl. I was one of those guys who was more use to long distance relationships. I never got a chance to talk to a girl normally in person. The closest way I can get to talk to a girl is usually through the internet. They all say that "Confidence is key to having a relationship." Like I honestly think I did get that confidence this valentines day even though it did not turn out the way I wanted too. At least she gave me a chance for a try. Like for me, when thoughts come into my head, I would usually just bottle it up instead of telling someone about it. Everyone even knows that there is no one to even trust in this world. I believe I am one of those people who are even open about anything about my life until someone asks me about it. Well, no one does. I hear everyone's everyday story, but why not want to know what I have kept bottled inside this whole time. I am actually scared of what I will say if I ever did open up to people. Like Social Media is soo strong that if you want to talk about someone, you really can't because everyone assumes things. I can tell you that I am lost in this love life. I just go from girl to girl, but the problem here is that once the conversation dies, I can't do anything but just end up getting hurt because of the things I have kept in this bottle. I never even had the balls to ask someone or anyone to do something with me when they usually assume that I like them or even have a thing for them. I have never taken the experience of another girl liking me back. This is kind of an eye opener for me. So what do you expect next? The fact that any other guy/ girl can hit on you and I can't do anything about it yet because I am not yours yet...I don't even know if I even have the guts to tell you every single thought I have about you. You can tell me that. Like some days, when I see you around, it feels like that we don't have that spark on being each other crushes. Like I feel like I have a shy type of personality where most of my thoughts are kept to myself yet again. I promised you I will try my best to try to talk to you but you know it is hard because it is something I am not really used to expect the fact that girls are not my specialty. I talk to my friends and give my friends good pieces of advice about their love life like I already have experienced it all. I think I did, but everyone, of course, knows that I don't.