2018, I can say was one of the worst years I have had. Struggles to find the answers to the questions that have been left unanswered from the previous year but I have been growing day by day to find the answers to all those questions and solutions. I'm still learning how to clear the gutter by telling others what and how I am feeling in the new year and so forth. I have also felt like I was out of place year around but I will hope that it will change. I felt like overthinking killed me this whole year but I will learn how to overcome this.
I have decided to finally set an actual goal that I can really achieve and get them done so I can have a better year than I did in 2018. I want to learn how to care less about what others think of me and work on improving myself rather than depending on others to always be there. I want to start talking to the friends that I no longer or used to speak to. I want to go see the world more as an individual and share the moments within each photo taken edited or raw. I am thinking of picking up blogging again as I have left it without clearing the air and fully picking it up again with sharing all my thoughts and feelings to everyone reading. I have told a few people that I want to learn how to be more vocal with others rather than just sitting there and observing. I am willing to change for myself rather than what others want me to be. I did realize when others tell me how to live my life, the end result doesn't add up to what they really wanted to be. So now I want a group of friends where I am able to clique and vibe well with and also be able to open up to them about my feelings rather than hiding behind a screen. As I get older, I learn more and more about being an adult. I've observed over the months of living at home is that I need to step up and speak up for myself and be able to defend the right person as some people will think that their thoughts override yours.
In all seriousness, I think I just have to let loose about all my thoughts and feelings. 2019 is going to be a new year with plenty of obstacles that will challenge me to be a stronger and better individual. The one quote that helped me throughout 2018 and going to bring into 2019 is "One step, one punch, one round at a time" quote from Creed when Michael B. Jordan begins with Sylvester Stallone on the journey to becoming a better boxer! Happy New Year and hoping that there will be more posts from me but if not I will see you when I do post!
