The Unheard Story

what's life on a day like every day to you? Questions I ask myself is that I have been asked every day but was never able to be answered. Do I have friends? Do they really have my back? All I know that is that they don't because they never come by and ask how am I nor how am I doing. I am just there everyday for my friends to listen to their everyday story instead of them coming to me for a hand. I have been keeping all my friends bullshit where it belong and hurts me the most even though it doesn't effect me. I only know I have at least 1-2 friends at most who are always there for me and are willing to listen to my story as the rest of the few 100 people I know that are just there for me for just the reason of having a common interest. Do you really truly care how I feel? Are you there to listen or are you there to tell me that you are just there to care? I am of course trying to get stronger and be the tougher person I really want to be, but I can't because there is stuff that are pushing me down and making me not want to become a better human I am today? Have you ever wanted to know my real story, the truth behind my smile? Or are you there to tell me your piece of bullshit? I don't think anyone knows what I am going through except for those who I have spoken to. All this time for everyone to think I have a good life I don't. I have lied my whole life, telling everyone bullshit about my life and about how my love life is when everyone believes through all these lies I have been telling them for a good whole decade. I clearly can say I have friends but not TRUE FRIEND. All I remember from day to day is that I am listening to everyone and being a good listener I am and trying to help all my friends get through life. My only 11:11 wish is that I really want to become a stronger individual and being able to run my own life without other having to step all over me and telling me what to do or just judge me whenever it is a great time. I get myself hurt and broken into pieces and not being able to speak the truth. I will keep praying every day until I have my own life to worry about and not yours. "Don't let greed be your friend because in the end you are going to lose a friend or so."Greed is so destructive. It destroys everything.

The Unwanted Feeling...

I miss you from day to day wishing you come by and say hey, but you are not worth my time, so time to say you are not worth the wait.

It's been a while

It has been a while since I wrote something on my blog. I was really busy with life! Not really. I have just been home playing the game and watching the Fifa World Cup! I am that kind of people where I don't have anything to write about as these are usual just thoughts that kind from the mind. My plan from now and then on is to hopefully give myself a little time off of school and hopefully find a job for myself and be able to pay off some debts and use they to an extent where I can do much more in the future. Lots of people have been asking what I wanted to do in post- secondary. My only plan and option at this point are to get into Graphic Designs as it can get me into other art schools like in Vancouver, BC or even somewhere within the world. It was great that my blog is where it is at today and how it inspires everyone on the internet to be able to connect and relate to the issue. I can say that I have inspired many people to have a blog and being able to express what you feel on paper or the internet then just keeping all your feelings bottled up. Like I hope to those who read this are enjoying their lives and being able to vent for those out there as many people of those individuals on the internet as many have experienced these phases of life. I only decided to write a post because it will help me out and keeps me stay in shape because if one day I do not see paper nor the computer I should be able to remember how to read and write as it is a skill you need everywhere you go especially when you are in school or in the real world finding a job and working for the industry