A Bottled Message

Days like these are meant to be warm and sunny. To the fact that today was raining kind of changed the way, I anticipate things. Rainy days are usually the best days for most of us that want to think about our future or even what is going to happen for the next few months and so forth. I never got a chance to be close to a girl as you were with any other girl. I was one of those guys who was more use to long distance relationships. I never got a chance to talk to a girl normally in person. The closest way I can get to talk to a girl is usually through the internet. They all say that "Confidence is key to having a relationship." Like I honestly think I did get that confidence this valentines day even though it did not turn out the way I wanted too. At least she gave me a chance for a try. Like for me, when thoughts come into my head, I would usually just bottle it up instead of telling someone about it. Everyone even knows that there is no one to even trust in this world. I believe I am one of those people who are even open about anything about my life until someone asks me about it. Well, no one does. I hear everyone's everyday story, but why not want to know what I have kept bottled inside this whole time. I am actually scared of what I will say if I ever did open up to people. Like Social Media is soo strong that if you want to talk about someone, you really can't because everyone assumes things. I can tell you that I am lost in this love life. I just go from girl to girl, but the problem here is that once the conversation dies, I can't do anything but just end up getting hurt because of the things I have kept in this bottle. I never even had the balls to ask someone or anyone to do something with me when they usually assume that I like them or even have a thing for them. I have never taken the experience of another girl liking me back. This is kind of an eye opener for me. So what do you expect next? The fact that any other guy/ girl can hit on you and I can't do anything about it yet because I am not yours yet...I don't even know if I even have the guts to tell you every single thought I have about you. You can tell me that. Like some days, when I see you around, it feels like that we don't have that spark on being each other crushes. Like I feel like I have a shy type of personality where most of my thoughts are kept to myself yet again. I promised you I will try my best to try to talk to you but you know it is hard because it is something I am not really used to expect the fact that girls are not my specialty. I talk to my friends and give my friends good pieces of advice about their love life like I already have experienced it all. I think I did, but everyone, of course, knows that I don't.