Type Of Friends Part 2

There are those days where you ask yourself if you either need friends or have friends that are there for you. Sometimes I feel like I need friends more than I have friends. When I have friends half of them are there for me when I need them and the other half is there to make me feel weaker than I already am. That half that always bothers are people who found my weakness of being a serious person. They are always there to just throw stuff back at me and then act like they forgot what happened and moved on. For me I will forgive but I won't forget what happen. This is why people see me as a house bum. Doing nothing useful with their life other than living at home. Maybe I am a house bum because I don't have many friends that are there for me most of the times when I need them to be there but instead they are just against me. If I don't have friends I can still do things alone but of course it won't be as fun as if I did have friends there with me. These thoughts won't ever leave my brain because I know they are true. I can also say to some of my friends that I have/had that they should know when I act fake around them, because I have but I will never tell you and hopefully you will know some point in life. I'd rather that I get rid of all these thoughts by sharing these thoughts than having them bottled up in my head, where later in time it will bother me until I tell someone about it.