Types Of Friends

I have been bothered in a way or another about having friends, that these thoughts start to bother me but I at least starting to understand what it is. There are friends who are there for you and friends who will be there for you. Friends who are there for you are just friends that you come back to when you have a group gathering with your other friends. Friends who will be there for you are friends who will get in any trouble to just be with you and be able to spend as much time. They will also invite you and make sure you won't be the only one left out . Friends who are just temporary there, they will do what you want to do even if it is pretending nothing even happened and just remember that why and how they became friends. I am starting to understand what kind of friends I want. Friends that at least know what I am going through and have the time to listen to the story that I have been holding back rather than just bottling up all these stories and having them come back and hurt you more than they already have the first time. To me if you were reading this, I just want to make sure you all know that I don't want anyone changing the way they are and just start to learn and re-think what you have done to impact our friendship. You may think nothing has impacted our friendship but it did. No one honestly knows how it feels to get bullied because I have a soft side. No one even bothers to help me with what I have been through. I have done many things to try to prove that I am strong enough to get up on my own feet and keep moving but instead there is always weights just stacking on me full of stress. I know some people are only friends with me because I am one of the weakest person in the group and is the easiest one to pick on for the reason that I am a sensitive kind of person when it comes to feelings. I mean if I had friends who were always there for me they probably be there for me to give me the hand I have wanted during those situations. I know I am that type of friend who is always there for every and anyone out there. So people just don't know the things I do and sacrifice to be able to keep a friendship alive...