The Bothered Feelings

I feel bothered being alone but it's better to be single since you are never alone. It's just the thought hits you where you really don't want to be shot. I was told by many that I take it too long to try to get something accomplished and it doesn't work because that's what's driving you away. I did the opposite and guess what I just got to know you and tell you that I like you and haven't ever talked since. Like maybe if I knew better I would have paced it and have gotten somewhere with my life but instead I'm stuck in the middle of the situation where I do not really want to be. I don't even know why I tell everyone to just take things slow and things will determine if you have hope or don't. Maybe I'm just that type of friend that cares about everyone around them that they don't even have the time to learn about myself. I didn't even find the happy side of myself. I'm just here bottling everything up and having all these thoughts that can't even be put into my mouth but yet instead just in another bottle where I never want them to be. I just wish throwing out the bottle is better than me having it to seal everything up and hoping someone someday will receive the message left behind on the long sad day.