My Thoughts over time

Something I've Noticed

I've changed like changed a bit. I used to get in other peoples way just to check on how they were doing and if they ever needed someone to talk to. But now I act like they are fine and living their own life. It started to bother me when a friend told me that. I told them well I'm not worried and curious to be in their life. I mean should I really bother talking to you or should I ignore you?


-Sometimes I feel like I am there but not really at the same time. I used to remember the fact that helped all my friends get through the day by talking to them and helping them the best I possibly can. I honestly want to know they haven't done the same. But honestly, I don't mind it since I'm just being a good friend. I also noticed the fact that my personality is better as it is behind the screen than it is face to face. I'm still learning how to let my thoughts out and expressing it.

Looking For Answers
How do I change? Is the question I always ask. How can I learn how to accept a friend without having feelings for them? How do I accept you for who you are without falling in love behind a screen? How can I hide the fact I like you without you knowing? How do I know how you're feeling about me? Am I going to be hurt after knowing I let my heart out? Is your friendship going be for the better or for the worst? Can I even live with that fact I actually told you how I felt? Is it going to be awkward when we talk face to face? Can I learn something from this and move on? These thoughts bother me on a daily basis. It scares me to even talk to you about it. Face to face. I always think of this as taking a photo. Will the picture connect with how you're feeling or what you see that others don't in the image or is it how your style of editing is different than mine? Another thing is where and when the picture was taken. Is it in the dark/sunset? Who knows. Just remember at the end of the day your goal is to have a connection with others around you.